why does god have to be good?

i dont get it

my mom was going off about how my aunt had this omg wavering of faith and she kept praying and praying but it was like god didnt listen and he never did listen in the end and she was never happy but it was for her own good because OBVIOUSLY GOD WANTED HER TO LEARN SOMETHING or SEE SOMETHING DIFFERENTLY or whatever and he has his OWN PLANS~*~*~ and WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS

what

why can't god just be an asshole sometimes and ignore you? i mean cmon you're all powerful and all knowing and all everything else and all these little whiny people are like WHINEWHINEWHINE GIVE ME SHIT why can't he just be like lol go away maybe next week and not always have to be all /KIND /BENEVOLENT /DOING EVERYTHING FOR YOUR OWN GOOD, why does god always get the benefit of the doubt? why's everyone think he's an omg always amazingly nice guy (ignore hurricanes and tidal waves and stuff like that, IM SURE HE HAS A PLAN HE MEANT FOR IT TO HAPPEN ITS FOR THE EVENTUAL GOOD OF THE FUTURE ignore that earthquake too GOD'S GOT EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL DONT WORRY ITS GOOD)

why can't he just NOT BE NICE, I mean seriously look at all the ancient religions, none of the gods were freakin NICE they were just HAPPY with you and therefore nice or MAD AT YOU and then bad shit went down -- so why suddenly the omg kind father in heaven who wishes the best for all his children and forgives everything stuff? I mean I get why people believe it (CAUSE ITS A LOT NICER TO BELIEVE than gods that you can PISS OFF who HATE YOU SOMETIMES) but seriously. SERIOUSLY.

next time im an asshole to someone and they ask me WHY I JUST DID THAT i'll just tell them i work in mysterious ways and they just don't know my plan (ps it's for your own good)

we cry havoc
well I've never really thought about that
EXPLODING DINOS
i mean everyone just ASSUMES GOD IS NICE
if he doesnt answer your prayer then HE JUST WANTS YOU TO LEARN SOMETHING
ITS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD
no
why cant he just be ignoring you
cause you're annoying
we cry havoc
HAHAHAHA
EXPLODING DINOS
right? I mean everyone's all NAWWWW GOD'S A GOOD GUY!!!! its like why do you just assume this

we cry havoc
like WHY DID THE CRUSADES HAPPEN
GODS WILL
WHY IS THE KING RICH AND THE PEASANTS ARE POOR ARE STAVING
STARVING EVEN
BECAUSE ITS GODS WILL
EXPLODING DINOS
GOD WANTS THE PEASANTS TO LEARN TO BE HAPPY WITHOUT MATERIAL WEALTH
well so do I /takes your stuff
we cry havoc
HAHAHA

You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy the topics below, erase my answers and put yours in their place, and then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration. One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. (:


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cannot stop listening

What has surprised you the most about me (if anything) since joining my flist/"friending me"? Was anything completely unexpected or have I always fit the picture of me you have in your head?

Post this in your own journal and see how you have surprised people!

... though I don't think I'm particularly surprising

so

1) my dad goes drinking at least once a week and blows over $1000 every time on alcohol and hostesses at bars or something.

2) my greataunt/uncle (mom's side)'s shop is utterly bankrupt and they dont know wtf to do, and my uncle (second son of bankrupt ones) is ALSO completely broke as in not-enough-money-
to-eat-broke

3) my mom's been sneaking them money behind my dad's back or something because they keep asking for help, she's just asked for my help in not having my dad find out

4) my dad wouldn't want to help them and it's not because he's an ass, it's because they already OWE US over $100,000 and that's NOT counting the money my mom has been sneaking to them for over a year now that my dad doesn't know about (she just left right now to give my broke uncle $1k or so)

ps) remember that greatuncle that leaves his store and family and goes to convert people in Cambodia on missionary trips while his family is bankrupt? yeah, it's that one

ANYWAY the point is my mom wants me to help her sneak money out by pretending to be using it myself and drawing it from my bank account and pretending to need books or need to buy stuff or something, so she doesn't have to explain all this to my dad because they're ALWAYS ASKING US FOR MONEY and the whole family is sick of it :| i am kind of against this idea, fuck you if you wanna help them don't use MY reputation to do it and LOL I doubt it would go unnoticed if the guy who has bought like... one thing for himself all year that isn't school or cars or gas or food SUDDENLY DECIDES TO BLOW $5000 ON RANDOM SHIT that I can't even uuuuh bring home because uuuuh FOR SOME REASON IDFK the logic is entirely flawed here

but if we don't help them, who will? i told mom to tell dad to quit drinking all the time and just give THAT money to them or something, solves two problems at once, but then she was all HE DOESNT LISTEN TO ME, YOU DO IT, YOU GO FIND HIM AND TELL HIM and I'm like why the hell are you dragging ME into this, I DONT EVEN CARE, and she's all DONT TELL ANYBODY I TOLD YOU ABOUT THIS BLAH BLAH and I'm like THEN WHY DID YOU BOTHER aethgkjaethgejkthf ughhh and then she whines about how my dad's drinking is SUCH A WASTE OF MONEY!!!!!11!!! but then is sneaking out about the same amount of money (again, behind his back) and giving it to her relatives so

ughhhh what

fuck family when I'm older

i always feel so out of place in LGBTQAwhateverthehellelse groups

... i don't even know why

this guy in one of my classes dragged me to one of the meetings of some group the other day and maybe I'm NOT GAY ENOUGH or something, it's just... weird FFF I mean I have nothing against LGBTQAwhateverthehellelse people person-by-person but when they all get together and are all ... TALKING ABOUT GAY THINGS and talking about everything/everyone else like they're a special in-group and "lol gay jokes that other people wouldn't get" and all BEING GAY TOGETHER I DONT KNOW ITS JUST WEIRD

especially when they expect you to sort of be like them and all into omg fashion and celebrities and tv shows and OMG HOT BOIS~*~ and... idfk, GAY STUFF and im sitting there like UHHHHH so ... is anybody excited for diablo 3...

I just FFFFFFF I can't do the whole YAY LET US CELEBRATE JUST THIS ONE ASPECT OF MY PERSONALITY which is not even really the dominant part of it or anything (none of them really are), when I talk to people I want to talk to them as them, not THAT GAY GUY or THE LESBIAN COUPLE or THAT BLACK/LATINA/INSERT MINORITY CHICK, and if bob HAPPENS TO BE GAY that's fine and if sue HAPPENS TO BE CHINESE that is cool and if mary and jenny HAPPEN TO BE DATING that's ok too

and everybody looks at you all "LGBTQAetc!!! SO WHICH LETTER ARE YOU?"

"hi im bob and im gay"
"hi im sue and im a lesbian"
uuuh hi im... not anything... uuuuh

FFFFFF straight people are weirded out because I HAPPEN TO NOT CARE WHAT IS IN PEOPLE'S PANTS and LGBTQAWHATEVER people are weirded out because I happen to not care what is in people's pants instead of BEING QUEER!11!11!!!! and if I'm queer WHY DO I MIND DOING QUEER THINGS!!!!11!! I mean IDFK I'm japanese but I'm not going around wearing yukata, and im korean but I'm not going around MAKING SURE MY KOREAN INFLUENCE IS IN EVERYTHING I DO why would i do that for anything else

i guess i wish there were... LGBT groups that were just groups and not LGBT1!!!!!11!!1 groups -- FFFF this sounds so weird and illogical but -- y'know, like hey a group of queer people going and doing unrelated stuff together! not like a group of queer people going and doing QUEER ACTIVITIES and having QUEER DISCUSSIONS, LIKE IDFK I WOULD GO ROCK-CLIMBING OR SOMETHING WITH THEM and we can all be queer together and bond while rock climbing ok, we don't all have to go in pink and sparkles with rainbow t-shirts SIGH

sigh :|

eXPLODING dinos: yeah its like
eXPLODING dinos: LETS JUST DO SOMETHING TOGETHER
eXPLODING dinos: not DO SOMETHING GAY TOGETHER
we cry havoc: YEAH!!
we cry havoc: LIKE BOWLING OR POOL OR -- or hey rock climbing that sounds like fun
eXPLODING dinos: EXACTLY I would be up for bowling
eXPLODING dinos: NOT QUEER BOWLING
eXPLODING dinos: just bowling with people woh happen to be queer
we cry havoc: YEAH
we cry havoc: hahaha you should start a PEOPLE WHO HAPPEN TO BE GAY club
eXPLODING dinos: LOL

eXPLODING dinos: I mean I literally dont
eXPLODING dinos: remember the last time I wanted to have sex with somebody
eXPLODING dinos: auuugh part of it is the mental stuff too im like AUGH I dont want to have to deal with them afterward
eXPLODING dinos: i can't look atp eople the same FFFF
JacksApathy: |: well the fact that a lot of people become morons doesnt help either
eXPLODING dinos: i mean random anonymous sex is more appealing to me than like
eXPLODING dinos: A BODY WITH A PERSONALITY IN IT
eXPLODING dinos: cause auuuugh its another person aaaaauuugh do not want gross forever
eXPLODING dinos: a PERSON with THOUGHTS and FEELINGS and stuff gross grosss i dont want to have sex with that
JacksApathy: HAHAHAHAHA
JacksApathy: HAHAHA which is weird because I think I'm... the opposite or something KFGNJ sex with a random person is kinda ??? why would I even bother I dont even see what the point is
eXPLODING dinos: if it were like COMPLETELY ANONYMOUS and just RANDOM BODY PARTS or something and purely physical it wouldn't be as gross
JacksApathy: RANDOM BODY PARTS
JacksApathy: SOMEONES SAWN OFF LEG OR SOMETHING
eXPLODING dinos: but aaaaaa im like GROSS THERE IS ANOTHER BEING IN THERE GROSS GROSSSSS I AM MESHING WITH ANOTHER ENTITY DO NOT WANT AAAA THEY ARE ACTUALLY SENTIENT
JacksApathy: ... that makes you sound like you have hilarious mental issues HAHAHAHAHA
eXPLODING dinos: WHY
eXPLODING dinos: BUT ITS GROSS

seriously having sex with persons is so much grosser and weird than just anonymous sex

... am i the only one that feels this way

eXPLODING dinos: im just like
eXPLODING dinos: "AAAA THEY PROBABLY WANT ME TO TALK TO THEM AFTERWARD"
eXPLODING dinos: "AAA WHAT IF THEY WANT TO BE FRIENDS"
eXPLODING dinos: "I DONT WANT TO KNOW PEOPLE IM HAVING SEX WITH"

YOU KNOW YOU'RE technophile WHEN...

MEME SPAM

oh yeah Pokemon HG/SS roms are out

to do:
- get books, one is at abebooks.com
- write random poem for class
- german homework :|
- change marimo tank water
- water tentacle beast
- get haircut
- eat

OH GOD MY POETRY CLASS IS GOING TO SUCK SO MUCH

seriously we did this little activity writing like two lines of poetry then passing it on and continuing someone else's poem

they wrote stuff about "fallen fungus" and how its like their "empty soul" and how something or other oozes red and black or something (it wasn't a vagina) (FLY IF YOU HAVE THE AIM LOGS WHERE I WAS RANTING ABOUT THIS POST THEIR AWFUL POETRY I lost it ):)

THE WORST PART IS THE PROFESSOR ISNT LETTING US PROPERLY CRIT, we're only allowed to say NICE THINGS we can't even say 'I didn't like this part' AAAAAAAAAAA /going to die

random thing I just realized today: my hair on my driver's license photo is gray, student ID is red, state ID is blue, passport is purple. I should collect a photo ID rainbow

i also managed to piss off a fat guy and a girl by trying to be polite

You Are a Despot

You're dominant and powerful. You always need to be in charge. While others respect your competence, you can be a bit of a dictator. Hard working and serious, you never let yourself down. You are exact and accurate - and you expect others to be the same way. Your strength: You always get the job done Your weakness: You're a perfectionist to a fault Your power color: Gray Your power symbol: Checkmark Your power month: April

fucking right :|||

1. You can ONLY answer 'Yes' or 'No'.

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments you and asks— and, believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming. Nothing is exactly as it seems.

( looool )

Man, reading that epic SGA figure skating AU fic is making me miss it :|

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THESE ARE XY'S:

http://i42.tinypic.com/24mc0lt.jpg :|

kufufu no raep: -- WHOA
kufufu no raep: WHOA
kufufu no raep: WHOA
kufufu no raep: BLACK HAIR

JacksApathy: HAHAHA awww it is like moto hair
exploding dinos: ITS LIKE 4 INCHES TALL
JacksApathy: ........... yeah it is

fireholly99: ....I forgot your hair's naturally black.
fireholly99: :|
exploding dinos: I did too

JacksApathy: does it stick up even when its WET
exploding dinos: it IS wet in that photo

things not to say to girls episode ... something

"You would be really pretty if you shaved off your mustache!"

sigh

WELL SHE WOULD BE ...

eta:
exploding dinos: quick
exploding dinos: write fic
exploding dinos: while you're high
exploding dinos: to read and lol over later
exploding dinos: THIS IS A GOOD IDEA go do it
JacksApathy: WHAT ABOUT
JacksApathy: pencil/scantron......
exploding dinos: do it
JacksApathy: LL THE ideas i can think of just reolvae around
JacksApathy: 'if penicl has to stay inside the boxes is that some kinda kink od scantrons or is it cause ies a prude....'
JacksApathy: relationsip avisrso.... being alll.......... hey scantron you need to
JacksApathy: be more open........
JacksApathy: pencil is tired of always pandering to your needs.........
JacksApathy: what about involving biro.......
JacksApathy: NNNNNNNNOOOOOO
JacksApathy: what about instead of just a filling on youar boxes all the atime you like......... wrote onr put an x
JacksApathy: NNNNO I CANT TAKE IT
JacksApathy: oh god what asm i
JacksApathy: talking about
exploding dinos: HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA
JacksApathy: thai s is
JacksApathy: entirely our fault
JacksApathy: ........ *your

"Hey mom? It'd be nice if you stopped calling me fat and ugly and dressing like a slob every time you see me."
"Why?"
"......well, it makes me feel bad. And it pisses me off."
"Why are you so immature? I'm just pointing them out so you can fix them."
"Well it's -- not what you say, it's how you say it."
"You know what I mean! I'm not making fun of you, I'm just telling you what to fix!"
"Right... except I don't really think anything needs fixing. I'm pretty happy with myself."
"What do you mean, nothing needs fixing? You're gaining weight and you're unhealthy and lazy and you dress like a slob!"
"......see, you're doing it again."
"Doing what again?"
"How would you like it if I went 'hey mom, you're fat' or 'hey mom, you're ugly' or 'hey mom, you're getting pretty wrinkly and old' every time I saw you?"
"I wouldn't care! I'd know you just meant to help me!"
"...really. Really. Are you kidding me. I don't think so."
"I WOULD. Why can't you just take things the way I mean them, I'm just trying to help you!!"
"I don't think I need help!"
"Well you SHOULD think you need help because (insert list of things)!"
"...okay, well, I don't think so. And it makes ME feel bad, so how about next time you see me and you think 'oh my god you're wearing that ugly jacket again,' you just don't say anything?"
"So you mean you want me to stop talking to you at all!?!?!?"
"...no, just don't -- "
"I'M JUST TRYING TO HELP YOU."
"I DON'T NEED HELP. All you're doing is making me feel bad about things I DON'T feel bad about in the first place. I'M HAPPY WITH ME."
"WELL YOU SHOULDN'T BE."
"...please just don't talk to me about this stuff. Is that okay? Just don't... say anything."
"GOD, WHY ARE YOU SO IMMATURE? WHY CAN'T YOU JUST TAKE THINGS THE WAY I MEAN THEM? THIS IS WHY I CAN NEVER EVEN TALK TO YOU! STOP ACTING LIKE A FIRST GRADER! COME BACK HERE -- "

I give up.

I remember a long time ago I was trying rorschach tests just to see what my answers were

and an anon on the last post reminded me of one of them

this was the rorschach:



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It's totally bulbasaur, ok?

I don't know what this tells me about myself besides "you are a giant geek"

Ask me a question and I will tell you no lies. ☂

Ask me anything. Ask me about my life, about how my day was, about what I like to do on my spare time. No matter how personal, I will answer. Or maybe you don't have a question. Maybe there is something you've been wanting to tell me for a long time but never had the courage to. Maybe you secretly hate me or love me or wish we were closer. This is the place to tell me.

Anon is enabled if you so choose to use it. Comments screened if asked.

got a haircut but they cut it sorta too short and it's weird looking :|

and then they put weird WAX or GEL or something in it BRB WASHING IT ALL OFF gross grosss :| x2

also I remember why I hated having black hair, my hair is too goddamned black, like enough to look FAKE-black, and it looks like I dyed it ANYWAY sighhhh :| x3

AND i got asked by two people what grade I was in, like "are you a senior?" "No, I'm in college..." "OH you don't look like a college kid, even kids in HS use gel and wear cologne and stuff nowadays, how come you don't, you should, i thought you were like 14" :| x900000000000

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